Charles Darwin once said  that’ “The love for all living creatures is the most noble attribute of man”.

But, Darwin also once wrote “But I am very poorly today and very stupid and hate everybody and everything”

Darwin must have had a bad day.  That was when I realized he and I had something in common at one point of our life.

The month of Ramadhan came and went. The celebration of Eid was fun but it felt short this year. Rauf was sick for a solid week after Eid and truthfully I wasnt in my best form of mental health. It just felt like an uncomfortable mix of anxiety, frustration and uncertainty. I just couldn’t figure out what on earth I was feeling. Everything felt bottled up, on top of sleep deprivation and the constant worry of why certain things hadn’t worked out. And when my son’s fever just wouldn’t go down no matter what I did, I just wanted to run into the corner and not leave until everything fell back into place.

It’s been ugly and messy but as I began to see the light at the end of the tunnel, I tried to remember what makes me happy and blogging is one of them. I kept going back and forth about blogging, I’ve been so busy lately and uninspired to write, but when I went back to the roots of my blog, I realized I had been so selfish because this is supposed to be mine and my children’s happy place, the place where they would turn to whenever they need to read something about their childhood or their family.  This is the platform that I’ve created for them in case they need advice or motivation. Regardless if I am still around or not, I want them to turn into my blog when they feel like they’re stuck and have nobody to turn too.

So kids, since this if for you then I’m going to be honest – I had an awful month-ish. But I got over it, and whatever crap you’re going through, trust me, so will you. Come on Charles Darwin had bad days too. No one is exempted.

I had a lot to be thankful for. I turned 30. Farah took me out for a spa date and concluded our 10 years Marvel journey together by watching Endgame. Joe surprised me with a staycation and I threw myself a Beyonce themed party. NO REGRETS. Watch her Coachella performance. I won’t blame any of you if you wanna start performing after that.

Reem was in KL!

Celebrated Eid in KL this year. Rauf played in the puddle, to my horror at first but it was so nice to see him having the time of his life.

and then Rauf fell sick and mommy had a nervous breakdown.

But that’s the beauty behind all the mess, though. Rauf recovered. So did my grandpa. I felt better. You know it in your heart that it will be okay again one day.  In the meantime I’m still figuring out how to balance it all. Hopefully soon, and stronger than ever.